“Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.”
(Paul’s 2nd letter to the church in Corinth)
“Go until you get a no.”
I could hear the words resonating in my head as I stood in my kitchen trying to make a crucial decision. Do I take my 7-year-old daughter’s school I.D. badge to her or do I go and pick up my friend so we can make our 9:45am flight to Orlando, FL? It was 7:30am and I was on schedule up to this point. Let me backtrack and tell you how we got to this point and to this crucial decision.
During the week, the normal routine at my house is to get up around 6:00am, get my 2 school age daughters out of bed, dressed, fed and out the door by 7:00am. After I drop them off at their school, I usually get back to my house around 7:30am. Today was no different with the exception that right at the moment my daughters were to jump out of the car and go to school, my oldest daughter informed me that she did not have her I.D. badge. She informed me of this while crying – actually, she was having a melt down. I calmed her down; she got out of the car and walked in the door of the school.
On my way home I made the decision to have my wife take the I.D. badge later in the morning. However, when I got home, my wife was still in bed – it was her day off. When I woke her to say good-bye (remember I’m flying out at 9:45am) I told her about the I.D. badge. My wife casually mentioned that she hoped my daughter would not be penalized by her teacher for not having her badge. I said good-bye to my wife and went into the kitchen.
At that moment, many thoughts were swirling in my head. First, I needed to be at my friends’ house at 8:00am to take him with me to the airport. Second, we have to make this 9:45am flight. Third, my daughter was one day shy of having a perfect ‘behavior report’ at school and I knew she was really excited about getting her reward. Her reward was getting to rent and watch the Cinderella 3 movie. Thus, I did not want her to be penalized for something that I should have remembered. Fourth, it was Friday and that is my wife’s day off to recoup and relax – I did not want anything to interrupt that. For most (including myself up to this point) people this would be trivial. But is it? Is it really trivial?
Just so you understand how I am wired and why this was so important to me, know this: I strongly believe that our decisions affect everyone around us regardless of whether we are aware of it or not. Some of these decisions impact the world and some of these just impact ‘our’ world – our friends and family.
For a moment in my kitchen, I was paralyzed with indecision. In that moment, I realized my indecision was because I knew that I could take the I.D. badge to the school and still make it to pick up my friend and head to the airport. Again, my paralysis of indecision was because I knew it was possible, not because I thought it was impossible.
I immediately jumped in my other car (I drop the girls off at school in the mini-van and I take my Honda CRV to the airport). I arrived at the school and ran into the office and gave the I.D. badge to the administrative assistant. She said she would take the badge to my daughter for me. Having taken care of that, I ran back to my car, put the key in the ignition and my car is dead. I checked to make sure it was in park. I checked if my lights were on. I checked if ANYTHING was on. Nothing. I popped the hood and realized either my battery was dead or my alternator was shot.
At this point, with the hood up on my car, I laid hands on my car engine and began to pray over my car in the name of Jesus. Guess what? Nothing happened. I tried again – something in my head was reminded of ‘perseverance’ – nothing happened. This is about the point when I started to unravel a bit. I ran inside the school and asked the first man I saw if he could help me jumpstart my car. Fortunately, I had jumper cables and I had already hooked them up. All I need was a battery juice donor!
The man looked at me and said, “Well, all I’ve got is a mini-cooper. Hopefully that’ll work.”
After a few moments of trying to fix the battery cable connections, we finally jump started my car and I was on my way to the airport. I called my friend and told him to drive separate and meet me at the airport.
Even though Friday morning rush hour was slow, I made to the airport in time to make my flight. Quick side note, on the drive to the airport, I noticed a small company’s billboard which read “Success is dependent on effort.”
I was feeling confirmed…sort of.
When I arrived to my destination, I called my wife and told her all about what happened. She was very thankful that I let her sleep and took care of delivering the I.D. badge to our daughter. We laughed about the situation and then got off the phone.
As soon as I got off the phone, I realized something. As a man, and as an introverted creative-type of person, I am not very prone to asking for help. Maybe it’s because I’m big on personal responsibility and on top of that I’m a bit O.C.D. With that combination I really do NOT like bothering people with my problems. It’s like a nightmare for me.
In this moment of reflection, I realized that God knew that when my car broke down my immediate response would be to pray. For me, praying is comfortable. However, what is uncomfortable for me is asking someone to help me. It’s tough to be dependent on another person, isn’t it?
Not only is it out of my comfort zone to act on impulse and risk not being on time for something (being punctual is a major thing for me). It’s also out of my comfort zone to bother someone with my problem by asking for help. It’s shameful for me. It hurts my pride and ego.
This impulsive decision to ‘save the day’ for my family was on the level of super hero status in my mind, and yet no one else viewed it this way. For those around me it was a mundane occurrence, for me it was a tiny miracle. Believe it or not, I felt ‘called’ to take that I.D. badge to my daughter and still make it to my flight on time. It had significance to me and at first it freaked me out when something went wrong. My initial thought when my car wouldn’t start was “God, I thought you were in this?”
It wasn’t until I arrived at the Orlando airport that I realized God had been in this crazy morning the entire time. I had written down the words from the billboard and remembered Dallas Willard writing something similar when he said “grace is not opposed to effort.”
It’s not healthy to think that God’s intent for your life – or your ‘calling’- will not come without some type of change, discomfort or stretching for you. God’s intent for your life will not have the strength or the capacity for change in the world around us until it changes you first. That’s what I learned by deciding to take my daughter her I.D. badge on an ordinary Friday morning. The ordinary can be extraordinary if we are paying attention.